2.6.2011

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it will not be the most beautiful day

yes , today is my new day .

The day I had to forget him

today is my cool day EVER .

today will be history that I will never forget

and i will never turn back , this is my destiny .

today is a day that will give me a new determination ,

like or not . i must faced it for my future .

today is the most painful day

the day that i must push my body to ignore the past.

today is the beginning

5 / 5 / 2011 :)

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ini tarikh saya break dengan DIA :D

nak tahu kenapa ? sebab dia dah buat saya macam tunggul and macam tak pernah wujud . lepas tu bila jumpa , dia buat muka tension . tau lah dia penat , *ingat aku tak penat ? hahahahahaha :D

tapi rasa happy sangat sekarang . aku rasa gila gila freedom ! rasa macam nak jerit satu dunia.

selama ni aku buta , pegi sayang dekat orang yang takde perasaan !

selama ni aku shok sendiri !

selama ni aku pekak ! padahal dia dah kutuk aku kat membe dia

selama ni aku bisu ! sebab aku tak pernah cakap apa yang aku rasa !

selama ni aku lembik ! sebab aku terima je apa yang dia buat !

selama ni aku pengecut ! sebab aku tak pernah nak bantah cakap dia !

selama ni aku bodoh ! sebab percaya apa yang kau janji kan !

selama ni aku lembab ! sebab tak pernah nak ambik tau pasal helah kau !

dan selama ni aku tak pernah nak fikir yang keluarga aku lagi sayang aku dari orang lain :)

cuba tengok betul-betul muka minah ni ? ada sama macam aku ke? -.-

classmate tak habis habis cakap muka aku sama dengan dia lah , kembar lah. hahahaha entah laaa . macam nak sama , tapi entah hahahaha :) tapi perangai banyak sama lah. aku bahan ke , buat lawak ke, dia orang pertama paham HAHAHA :D kalau budak lain , tunggu balik rumah , makan makan dulu , baring dulu , nak dekat tidur tu baru nak paham apa yang bahan hahaha :D tapi budak atas ni bajet gangster je. HAHA bila dia marah , dah macam ahli geng bas sekolah dah aku tengok ! HAHAHAHA -.- tapi sejak dia masuk sekolah , aku memanjang gelak je. haha sumpah tak bosan lepak dengan kau , kembar ! Hihihihi tapi kalau dia dah start bahan , ayat dia mmg mintak kaki ah haha ==' lagi best kalau ada bf budak ni. lagi macam SHIAL bahan dia :p hahahaha :)

I will never be, I will never be tall, no
And I will never be, never ever be sure of it all
Oh, why's the world so cruel to me?
When all, all I ever wanna be is anything I'm not

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not, I'm not

I will never be, I will never be you, no
I will always be, I will always be me, that I know
But oh, even though I'm happy being me
I want to get away from all this harsh reality, oh

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me

I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not

Yeah, gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not, anything I'm not
Oh, anything I'm not

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not

I WISH MY DREAM COME TRUE

i wish i can be tough as The Rock

i wish can be happy as selena gomez

i wish i can be beauty as Kristen Stewart

i wish i can be cute as Britney Spears

i wish i can keep smiling as Colbie Caillat

i wish i could have a super voice as skylar grey.

i wish i can stand by my mom every time as my dad

i wish i could stole your heart as you stole mine

Sehaa , please cheers yourself . no need a stress . you still have a friends who cares you .

you still have a parent who loves you. you still have a sister who always make you laugh . you still got a brother who always take care of you . you have everything. but if you love me , just say it . and I love you too . i wanna you to sit beside me. i want you to care about me , i wan't you to love me as you loves yourself . I want you to join me if I laugh. i want you to be the first person who celebrate my birthday. i want you to cheers me everyday. i want you to watch barney and friends with me everyday. i want you to miss me when i'm about to go. i want you to say ' i need you ' everyday. i want all this. can i get it? :'(